I can’t stop thinking about what comes next… What changes and how and when and why. The only thing I know is that I want to know.
I remember me being like this for a while now, feeling ‘the next’ would be the best place to be. School was ‘thinking about college’, college was about ‘work’ and now work is about ‘new places and new work.’
I wouldn’t say I missed on my present, but just assumed / believed the best was yet to come. That ‘best’ which would be ‘All that I ever wanted’. But when I reach that ‘next place’, ‘what I’ve wanted’ changes and so do my aspirations.
Change is the most constant factor in our lives and the irony just doesn’t stop here. It’s never my life about me, it’s there and only there, because of the people that surround me. My family, friends, other people that I feel are less important in my life, but somehow they define a lot of things around me, like my colleagues. And ‘I’ am just and only important as to ‘how I fit around these people’.
Amongst the mix of good and bad surprises in life, I have realized that it has all made me come to be a decent person (only and only according to me, not for judging anyone else) and that basically means that I’m not so bad to be around. If you’re contemplating WHY then in my defence:
- I do believe in the GOOD, you know that good things do happen and good people do exist.
- There is always hope for better to come.
- I sometimes pray to God and include unselfish prayers also.
- I don’t make efforts to make others’ life hell. (Believe me this is really a scorer! 😉 )
- I’m kina fun at times.I think…
Talking of people around me.. Something’s that I try to learn/ have seen from those who’ve been around me for sometime now:
N – Ignore things.. Sometimes you need to take your mind off the tension and distract yourself, even if it means complete ignorance..
A – Take things lightly! Mostly things aren’t as serious as we make them.
I – It’s your life.. Wherever whatever, no one else can make you much happy / sad than yourself. So Enjoy it!
S – Dedication can be built; every day counts and makes it stronger. ..
Ni – Just be good. It stays with you forever..
S – Good times do come around, even if bad stays a little longer..
P – Staying happy is easy!
R & S – Being organized is something we should all try to learn..
D – Old friends are the best!!
A – Try and complain less.. it really doesn’t solve any problems you know!
Coming back to surprises…I’m always on the look out for what next and with much surety, than I have in anything else, I know that just when my anxiety and curiosity settles a bit, there will be some NEW turn that my life would take. But see that’s the thing, it’s only once in a while I rest back with now.
Fo now.. I’m waiting.. for the next.. J