I’m not even listening to that song, just felt like keeping that title.. did I say I was going to talk about it? Well, no, not today..
I went to this college friend’s engagement party yesterday. He’s my age or maybe a year or so elder s that makes him between 24-26 and he’s already getting married. It’s a love marriage.. Awww… they fell in love and fought and maybe even abused each other. and nw they want to spend their entire lifetime together..wow!!
But I feel that you need to be way much mature than a 26 year old to get married. Maybe his is an exceptional case.
Anyways, so me and this friend ‘B’ (who used to be the many boyfriends type and is now going for arranged marriage and moving to New York in Feb, lucky B*****) went for the engagement. We thought we’re gonna meet lot of good guys there, some but luck.. none.. like ZERO good guys. Now plz dun ask what’s good! Such a disappointment! we hanged around for sometime and then B’s dad was there to take us home. Hmmp! Just as we were moving out, we saw a few good guys moving out.. n I’m like ya? seriously? now? Whatever!! you see the troubles a sweet single girl has to go through here..hahahaa..
Anyways, came back late and then got onto Facebook, until mom reminded me that I was working tomorrow.
That’s about it I think.. as I said.. no sex talk…
Okay, if you want to hear something then.. a little something similar won’t hurt right? But its a serious issue okay, so please don’t take this as entertainment . how will I know anyways..i knw..I’m just expecting you to be as honest as I am while writing it..
So about me and New Guy, I told you’all about the intimate thing that happened with New Guy na, and after that I wasn’t able to talk to him about it or anything even close to it. I was so awkward, I am still. It’s all weird, not that I’m guilt or anything, just weird. I’ve never been with someone I don’t like or care or love.
What i’m trying to say is I can set limits for myself when I know what feels right and what doesn’t, that’s been my best torch on every dark road till date. But now, it’s not right, nor wrong, it’s all weird! Like you just tasted some new cuisine and you don’t know if you like it or not. Do not mistake ‘taste’ in literal sense please.. so embarrassing.
And its all the more weird that I’m writing all this here, but I feel like I should, get it out.
How do you understand what you’ve never been in? How do I keep talking to someone and not think about it ?
What I’m asking is ‘what’s all this timepass thing?’ seriously! tell me!
All I’m sure of is that I don’t feel anything for him.. and that I like.