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Archive for May, 2008
Feeling Outdated.
Oh no I’m not 55 years old cranky lady, I’m only 22 years old, working as a software engineer, supporting my family, trying tomake ends meet and thinking a lot all the time. I don’t feel even up to my age, not in my thinking, actions or otherwise, until recently i went over to my aunt’s place. My grandfather was going to be operated for by-pass surgery and all our cousins and relatives gathered with support and prayers. So I got talking to my 16 years old cousin and to my shock I realised that I am 23 years old, out of school, out of college and have working for a year now. She updated me with all her school gossip and “in things”. I realised that its different world now and I’m not one of them, careless, carefree, cheerful and full of life.
Its strange but true, I don’t feel like I am not one of them, but thinking of my ways of thinking and living I am. I have more things to worry about than just few guys and my crushes. It also struck to me that I’m no where near what I thought of being when I would work. I dreamt of a life, many friends, parties, work I love, travelling and more than anything I believed all that would come true. i believed that they were not just dreams but my life to be.
Looking at myself today, I have less faith more doubts, less happiness and more regrets, not dreams but goals to achieve. Yes I don’t run after dreams, but I build them into real objectives, thought and realistic. But somewhere I need the magic again, the magic to keep that eternal faith in myself, think less and go for it and know that only a better world awaits for me.
So I’m updating my list of dreams to be fulfilled before I turn 25, so that i don’t feel what I feel right now, not lived enough and time passed me without letting em know.
1. Travel alone (another state or country)
2. Get a tattoo
3. Start something new( music/dance/art)
4. Go trekking
5. Complete a book
6. Sponcer an orphan child’s education
7. Start voluntary work for NGo/Street children
8. Adapt a healthy lifestyle for good
9. Organise family affairs
10. be more Accepting
11. Forgive people and forget unwanted baggage
12. Love myself more
13. Be more warm person
14. keep the learning ‘new stuff’ going on.
“Bleeding Love”-Its different for me
We usually like songs that somewhere touch us, portray some part of our life in them. But its so different with this song, i am so not in love or heartbroken or in the process of finding any love, or anything near any ROMANTIC LOVE, yet I feel so connected to this song. I think it makes me feel like those are my hearts words, my feelings. For me love in this song refers to my love for ’the ways i want to live my life in’, a feeling that no one else can know ad they all think I’m crazy. It touches me and every part of me that is different from this world and its usual ways.
Bleeding Love : by Leona Lewis
Ooooh, ooh, ooh, haaaa
Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen
But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy
But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open
Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling
But nothings greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe
Don’t measure…
Its strange but we usually do end up to decide and measure many things. How was work?, how happy are you, how much fun we had, how much loved you feel?…n the list goes on. I think we should try to stop at the fact that it happened and erase the ‘how much” part. Stop it there, don’t decide, don’t measure just be there and live it.
I’ll try it too. lets see if it works. 
and if helps to make your life better, then again don’t measure how much better it made your life, just know that it did and smile away
Looking for Adventure Sports groups in Delhi, India???
Hi Guys!
If anyone has any info about any Adventure Sports groups in Delhi or NCR, please lemme know. Would ike to join in.
the same life with a little difference…
Its common to wish for a different life than what you have, but here’s my list of few changes that could change my life. Maybe some are meek and selfish, some achievable and some not, maybe a few are already with me waiting to be realized, but i’m just jotting them down so i don’t forget they ever existed in my mind.
1) make right decisions.
2) be a light hearted person.
3) think less and do more.
4) Stay happy
5) Be an optimist.
6) Realize my dreams.
7) Smile
Be loved and liked by all ( ok this is too much.. so lets say almost all)
9) Enjoy the life I have.
10) Be a social person.
11) have many true friends
12) Write a book and get it published.
13) have undying faith in myself.
14) Be polite to people.
15) stop being overly judgemental.
16) Not to percIve ideas too fast.
17) Not be afraid.
18) Live my dreams
19) Always keep learning something new.
20) Never feel helpless
21) never regret anything.
22) learn form my mistakes.
23) Be diplomatically honest.
24) Stop giving unwanted advice and judgements.
25) Love myself for who I am.
26) respect myself and my body.
27) Be healthy
28) be part of many adventure sports groups.
30) provide the best to my family.
